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Jan. 9th, 2009 12:01 amBack in the therapist's office again.
It's an afternoon appointment but Bill still feels worn around the edges. Last night wasn't one of his better nights.
He and the doctor have been talking awhile but Bill's not really into it today. Tired, and not very into the session, he's been distracting himself with the candy on the table, searching in vain for a toasted marshmallow jelly belly as they talk.
"You look tired today, Bill," Dr. Montaño notes, looking over at Bill from her chair in front of her desk.
Bill's eyes lift from his palm where he was poking through a handful of candy beans then looks down again before replying.
"I am. A little. Bit of trouble sleepin' last night."
"Oh? Do you have trouble sleeping often?"
He nods and shrugs a little, examining one piece of candy then adding it back to the others in his hand.
"Sometimes, I guess. Been kinda restless, lately, an' when I do sleep it... ain't always good."
"It's common to experience, nightmares after tramatic events, Bill."
His hand closes over the candy and he looks up at her.
"I know. Just... wish I could get rid of 'em already."
"Time," She replies gently. "Time and talking about them will help. You're still healing, Bill, and while the dreams may never go away entirely, with the process we're going through now you'll be better able to cope with them."
Bill holds back a sigh and nods. Those things don't really help him any now.
"You said you've also been restless?" She prompts. "Tell me about that."
Finally eating some of the candy his eyes roam around the room and settle on the window.
"Just... restless. Some nights it's hard to get to sleep an' some days I feel... I dunno, stir crazy. I've got a lot a free time an' don't know what to do with myself for a lot of it."
There's only so many matches he can lose to his video game before getting fed up, and only so many times he can watch the same Sportscenter in one day.
"Kate's there an' I love spendin' time with her, but I don't wanna be a pain in the ass or nothin', so I try an' give her her own time an' space. She goes out or does work on her computer or whatever an' I just sorta... do a whole lot of nothin'."
Milliways is a distraction but it doesn't help him pass the day when time is frozen while he's there.
"Do you have any hobbies?"
He shakes his head and finishes the rest of the candy.
"Not really. I go fishin' once in awhile. Just learned to ride a horse again."
"Those are good, but do you have any creative outlets? Hobbies that allow you to express yourself?"
"No." Tilting his head at her he waits to see where this is going.
"I think it might be good for you to find something like that for yourself. It will give you something to do and a medium to express some of your inner feelings and work through some of the frustration you've been feeling."
"Yeah? What kind of hobby?"
"There's plenty out there. Painting, drawing, various crafts; really there are countless options that you could choose from. My suggestion is go to a hobby and craft store and wander around a bit, see if anything appeals to you."
Scratching his chin he considers her suggestion and nods a little, "Yeah, I suppose I could do that."
"Good, we can talk about it next session. How's that sound?"
"All right, I uh, guess I'll see you then."
They both stand and shake hands and Bill heads out not completely convinced but willing to give the idea a try.
It's an afternoon appointment but Bill still feels worn around the edges. Last night wasn't one of his better nights.
He and the doctor have been talking awhile but Bill's not really into it today. Tired, and not very into the session, he's been distracting himself with the candy on the table, searching in vain for a toasted marshmallow jelly belly as they talk.
"You look tired today, Bill," Dr. Montaño notes, looking over at Bill from her chair in front of her desk.
Bill's eyes lift from his palm where he was poking through a handful of candy beans then looks down again before replying.
"I am. A little. Bit of trouble sleepin' last night."
"Oh? Do you have trouble sleeping often?"
He nods and shrugs a little, examining one piece of candy then adding it back to the others in his hand.
"Sometimes, I guess. Been kinda restless, lately, an' when I do sleep it... ain't always good."
"It's common to experience, nightmares after tramatic events, Bill."
His hand closes over the candy and he looks up at her.
"I know. Just... wish I could get rid of 'em already."
"Time," She replies gently. "Time and talking about them will help. You're still healing, Bill, and while the dreams may never go away entirely, with the process we're going through now you'll be better able to cope with them."
Bill holds back a sigh and nods. Those things don't really help him any now.
"You said you've also been restless?" She prompts. "Tell me about that."
Finally eating some of the candy his eyes roam around the room and settle on the window.
"Just... restless. Some nights it's hard to get to sleep an' some days I feel... I dunno, stir crazy. I've got a lot a free time an' don't know what to do with myself for a lot of it."
There's only so many matches he can lose to his video game before getting fed up, and only so many times he can watch the same Sportscenter in one day.
"Kate's there an' I love spendin' time with her, but I don't wanna be a pain in the ass or nothin', so I try an' give her her own time an' space. She goes out or does work on her computer or whatever an' I just sorta... do a whole lot of nothin'."
Milliways is a distraction but it doesn't help him pass the day when time is frozen while he's there.
"Do you have any hobbies?"
He shakes his head and finishes the rest of the candy.
"Not really. I go fishin' once in awhile. Just learned to ride a horse again."
"Those are good, but do you have any creative outlets? Hobbies that allow you to express yourself?"
"No." Tilting his head at her he waits to see where this is going.
"I think it might be good for you to find something like that for yourself. It will give you something to do and a medium to express some of your inner feelings and work through some of the frustration you've been feeling."
"Yeah? What kind of hobby?"
"There's plenty out there. Painting, drawing, various crafts; really there are countless options that you could choose from. My suggestion is go to a hobby and craft store and wander around a bit, see if anything appeals to you."
Scratching his chin he considers her suggestion and nods a little, "Yeah, I suppose I could do that."
"Good, we can talk about it next session. How's that sound?"
"All right, I uh, guess I'll see you then."
They both stand and shake hands and Bill heads out not completely convinced but willing to give the idea a try.
